Dear God,

Hey, it's me. I messed up today...and You saw every minute of it. You saw me lie, and fall back into my old temptations - into everything I swore I would never do. And so I'm here...once again...to ask for Your forgiveness. When I look at my body and hate what I see...when I lie to my parents...to my friends...to myself...to You - and when I run away, when I forget that You are there.

You are the only one who has never left me...You have never once left me in the wilderness alone. I had my times in my desert, but You were always there. You always held my hand, and You always watched me - even when I was too blind to see it. But, God, I see it now. I want to see You now and feel You now like never before...my desire is for You to come inside of my heart and fill me up until I burst and everybody arounds me knows that Your love is inside of me.

I don't want to set a bad example...God...I really REALLY don't. Help me to have integrity and character. Let me know that just because nobody is around, that doesn't mean that nobody is watching. You are everywhere I am...and let me always feel Your presence...and keep me from doing wrong. Me and him are getting too physical, and I'm not afraid to admit that. Cause, I want to feel like...like we are doing the right thing at all times. So, right now, I give this relatoinship to You.

I did it again today. After the ice cream. You saw. You cried for me...You cry everytime I hurt myself like that. So here. Here it is. Here is all my insecurity...all my hurts...fears...guilt...pain...me. Here I am. I offer myself to You so You can mold me and make me more and more like You each day. God, I need to know that You are always going to catch me when I fall, and I fall often. I want to be close to You. You. Nobody else.

I know that You forgive me, I just don't understand how you can. I don't understand how You can just...forget about all the wrongs that I do. You gave me life, You gave up EVERYTHING so that we could have a relationship. You created me in YOUR image so I could bring You joy. I don't understand how somebody like me could bring You...the Creator of all things joy.  I am so unworthy of Your forgiveness, of Your mercy, of Your grace.

Let me know that I am healed - that You have already forgotten about this day - that You have washed me as white as snow. Man....thank You.

Thank You...Thank You...Thank You...and not just for forgiving me, although thats a HUGE part of it. But, God, thank You for my life. Let me never EVER forget how incredibly lucky I am. I mean, really. Look at my life. I am so blessed...and Thank you for always always bringing me through the trials. Thank you for my wonderful family...I love them. They are the most amazing parents a girl could have...and God...I really really really want to honor them. No more late curfew, no more lying. Ever. I want to have a completely open and honest relationship with them.

Thank you for my friends...all of them. God, I feel like we're all drifting apart, and I really do not want that. Really..whatever I need to do to mend those friendships or whatever, please let me know. Let me know what it is that I need to do. Just, let me look to You. Let me never ever forget the sacrifices You made, and the blessings that I have.

God, You are so holy. You are so beautiful and just completely and utterly amazing. You are the source of my joy...and my happiness...my peace. Jesus YOU are my peace. My everylasting love...You are how I know what love is. I love you so much...I love you I love You I love You. Man...I am so happy right now...I feel so free...you have freed me from everything.

I am free. I am new. You made me new...it's the start of a new day.

Right now.

No more eating when I'm not hungry.

No more physical activity.

No more lies.

I love you...I love everyone...and everything.

You are awesome.

Thanks.